BLACK

I'm a bit of sad today, and frustrated.

I got home at around 4:30 am from a bar at malate. Everything's cool, I've even danced for the first time.. (lolz). But... I don't know. I think I've just reached my point of satiety for this kind of activity. The bands are playing the same old type of music (my ears just want something new, probably. Yes, I'm ready for the Next Episode... duh) The people looked all the same (the only person I find cute was the fingerplay's band drummer). I feel the insincerety of it all. I suddenly wonder why they are there. Is it because of the opportunity of finding a new friend? Or is it because they don't know where to squander their hard-earned money? Me? I attend parties because of music (and the different kind of hype I feel when I'm dancing, though I really look so stupid when I'm dancing)

Yes, I'm beginning to believe that most parties are truly lame.

No classes today. Thanks to Ninoy Aquino.

must.. create.. another ... site...

Anyone who knows a good a WYSIWYG website editor that's easy to learn? Comments are welcome...

:DSo Lucky

... because I still managed to survive, even if this world is so cruel... even though everybody's changing (and I don't feel the same? hehe),... even if life deprives me of time, and something's I want to have (I realized I already have what I need)

...to be continued

I just want to share this:

"Ugliness is not necessarily the absence of beauty but a different kind of visual perception"

I really can't afford to blog today, I'm in school...

"Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me now, just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away.."

From Verdana to Tahoma.

Another shout I received yesterday, so I locked myself up again inside my room and let the pillow catch the warm fluid running down my face. Why is it that when somebody hurt you, you suddenly remember the other people in the past who have caused you pain? Then you'll start to pity yourself and you'll end up realizing that there's really nothing in this world still worth living for. Not even your family... especially in my case.

That was yesterday. Today is of a different story. I'm with my blockmates and laughed with them. Hey! I'm beginning to truly like them (only some though). Especially when we went to Pier One at the Fort... I enjoyed talking with them. Then I remembered the 4Aers and my other friends... this life is still worth living.

For some katatawanang Pinoy, Read this: (from http://www.highfiber.org" title="http://www.highfiber.org" target="_blank"http://www.highfiber.org)

Bobo nga ba ang mga Pinoy? Sa tingin ko hindi. Siguro talagang medyo hirap lang tayo minsan magpahayag ng gusto nating sabihin.

* Notice sa isang MEGALINK ATM: "OOF LINE"
* Sa billboard ng isang motel: "Affordable, Clean, and Convenience"
* Sa isang pader sa Laloma: "Huli ihi, putol titi"
* Sa isang self-service restaurant sa Cebu: "Please help our comfort room clean"
* Sa isang highway sa Pampanga: " We Make Modern & Antique Furniture."
* Sa delivery truck: "NOT FOR HERE"
* Sa isang pabagsak na pader sa Libis, QC: "Danger Wall is Falling!"
* Sa isang pader: "Marunong ka bang KUMAHOL? Aso lang ang umiihi dito!"
* Sign sa PLDT: "SLOW MEN AT WORK"
* Welcome to the Philippines -The Only Catholic Country In Asia!" sa ilalim nito: "BEWARE OF PICKPOCKETS"
* Sa isang building sa Cebu: "Atty. Domungo Carriedo, NOTARY PUBLIC. Tumatanggap din ho ng labada tuwing Linggo.
* Sa dating Blumentritt Branch: "Far East Bank and _rust Company"
* Sa grocery sa Baguio: "Fresh Frozen Chicken Sold Here"
* Sa isang bahay na katabi ng auto repair shop: "No parking and repair here"
* Sign sa PHILCOA: "No Crossing Pedestrians will be apprehended"
* "Sorry for the inconvenient. Your taxes is working for you"
* Sa Baguio Country Club: "Temporary Close"
* Sa Cubao: "None ID Nothing Entry"
* Vandalism sa bus: "Boy and Marcy, thats are friends"
* Parking Lot: "Taxi and outside cars not allowed"
* Sa isang construction site: "now showing-the carpenters."
* Sa isa pang construction site: "Erection going on"
* Sign sa jeep: "Lunita"
* Banko sa Timog Avenue: "No parking for customers only."
* Office Clinic sa Sta. Cruz: "Dr. Sakim A. Morge, M.D."
* Sa kariton ng nagtitinda na mani: "Pasalobong"
* Sa Luneta Boulevard: "BAWAL TUMAE SA BULEVARD"
* Sa jeep at bus: "Before pay, tell where get on beforeget off. "Full string to stop driver." "God knows Hudas not pay," "For reckless driving, call #######." "Don't close to me, close to God"
* Flower shop sa Rizal Avenue: "We sell artificial fresh flowers"
* Sa bintana ng isang restaurant sa Baguio: "Wanted: Boy Waitress"
* Kalye sa San Juan: "Bawal magtapon na binalot na tae rito"
* Sign sa isang newspaper stand: "HUWAG BULATLATIN KUNG HINDI BIBILI"
* Tag sa Divisoria: " Ponkan for sale at P5.00 per each"
* Sa lumang pader sa Sampaloc: " matapang lang ang umiihi dito"
* Sa isang repair site na wlang trabahador: "Your taxes is working for you"
* Kainan sa Chinatown: "Le Ching Tea House"
* Isa pang pamatay na kainan: "DETH'S Eatery"
* Sa computer shop sa Quirino: "CD to VCD conversion"
* Sa construction site sa Mandaluyong: "BAWAL OMEHI DITO. ANG MAHOLI BOG-BOG"
* Kainan sa Cebu: "we hab sopdrinks in can and in BATOL"
* Sa Rizal Ave: "We buy gift checks and all kinds"
* "NAGKAKASAL" sign sa harap ng bilyaran
* Sa Novaliches: "Jhun Radiator Rifair Shop"
* Sa Bulacan: "We repair elecric fun"
* Vacant lot malapit sa Makati Avenue: "DONT PARKING"
* Sa San Andres: "NO URINATING, on the over WALLS"
* Sa isang kumbento: "2nd Floor Upstairs"
* Entrance sa NBI: "ENTRANCE, Pinoy huwag matigas ang ulo"
* Exit sa NBI: "EXIT, hindi to C.R., putol titi"

Funny but depressing...

Physical attraction - this is what everybody is all about! The world of superficiality endeared so much by almost the entire population of the naive. Did I wish I to be emptied and be "pretty" instead in exchange for approbation from the modern-day dictator called the "society"? Of course not! I will not go with the flow, I've been through that kind of nonsense already. I'm not appealing like everybody else is, but I will prove to them that you don't have to be a Goddess to be liked and be loved. The heart is anything but shallow. That love can see through the stunning clothes, halle berry-like faces and jennifer lopez-like bodies.

It's all so depressing... how some individuals can be deceived by a simple batting of the lashes or one shot of a killer smile. How they easily give-in and fall for an effortless love song hummed through the strings of a guitar or a small talk made through the phone or a magical coversation of two pairs of eyes. How they ignore the inner beauty, disregard attitudes and personalities - the actual must-haves of a real person, just because of the need to brag somebody who will be accepted and adored by the same dull-minded ordinary people.

" talking burdens around me, messing my head, now everything's blurry..."

I haven't received my Speech Class grade today. My Professor said I missed some of the needed requirements, I think I missed one particular quiz.. so, yeah, I'm doomed to have a low grade. But I was happy to know that 80% of our grade will be taken from our recitation. Weee!! I'm good at recitations in that class! cheers for me!! *claps*

This New BETA posting engine thingy is nifty and nice... claps for the tblog crew!!!

I spend my free hours at school alone. Am I turning introvert? Hell, what can I do? I don't like my blockmates... well, at least for now. They bore me... and I mean it, they're bloody boring (to the nth power). They're all so serious with their studies, in short, all are sooo smart!! Smart? Well, I'd rather use the word "knowledgeable" for them.. it is more applicable. Why? Take away their book and they're done, they're absolutely dependent on some books. Me? Oh, I'm just the average student, maybe worse than the average student.. I don't buy books, I don't bring books, I don't review too much - in short, I'm the sick easy go lucky type of student. At least I'm fun.. I don't bore people like the way they bore me. Am I just insecure? Well, I would admit that I'm often times insecure. But my insecurity is discriminating. It only shows up and eats a part of me when it comes to people I really look up to or someone who really deserves my insecurities. And none, aboslutely none of my present classmates is deserving of my insecurities. Besides, I still manage to achieve good grades and my professors think I'm beyond the usual. That was my professor's own impressions.. not mine, FYI.

See? I'm such a hater. Maybe the ol' saying is true, that "Ignorance is bliss". The more you know about life, the more you're unhappy about it and you'll have the more tendency to hate. The less you know, the more you're satisfied and happy. Disagree? Let me know.

"Contentment, is of course, relative. For me, it is not being satisfied with what you already have, but being happy for having what you got and improving or developing that something u have into a more beautiful thing." -kelstar

Thesis Statement “Same sex relationship is immoral and therefore, it should never be legalized here in the Philippines” Introduction Go to the mall, watch the T.V, read the newspaper or just observe the persons who roam around your classroom, I bet there’s someone out there who may seem to you a bit of different, someone who practice somethings you could never understand - someone who’s a member of the LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexuals, Trans-gender) community. Was it just a coincidence or an intimidating bite of reality?

We must admit it, that more and more of the Filipino people are becoming aware of their sexual preferences orientation (corrected by a no namer blog reader, thanks..). They’re beginning to realize that it’s not really the opposite sex they’re longing for or they want to hook up with. I’d like to think that this is just nothing but a trend, but sadly though, our past history doesn’t affirm to my conclusion neither the present time nods its head to agree with me.